I haven’t posted in here in years (literally). I actually forgot about this blog until I started signing up for a new one to record my medical school journey, and I found out that my username was already taken. I couldn’t imagine who would take “xlvee”, and of course, it turns out it was an older me who took it. Awesome.
What’s changed since my last post? I graduated college. I’ve been working full-time as a lab assistant. I broke up with my boyfriend at the time (relevant based on my “love” advice). I applied/am applying to medical school. I have one medical school acceptance already, so I am going to be a doctor!
I’m keeping my old posts because (1) the first post still has pretty relevant life advice, and (2) the second post, as depressing and slightly naive as it sounds, was raw emotion, and I want you to know that I’ve grown, I’ve gotten better, but most importantly that it sucks royally to be a patient. Now that it’s been about four years since my hospitalization, it’s hard to remember exactly what the patient experience was like. But posts like those, and my recent visit to my old doctor’s office and the dialysis center I used to go to, remind me. I want to keep these memories around because I’m sure there will be days when I, as a future healthcare practitioner, will feel frustrated or cannot empathize with a patient. I want these reminders to keep me human.
What will this blog be for? Honestly, I haven’t quite figured that out. I have been keeping an online journal for a long time on LiveJournal, and I don’t know how to split these two. I think I will keep more personal posts on my LJ. This means that for now, this blog will be about my medical journey (as originally intended), perhaps my thoughts on life, and to spice things up, I might post about hobbies like reading, photography, travel, TV shows, etc. too. WHO KNOWS?